Another year, another 12
2014 has gone so fast. I have enjoyed some parts of the year (mostly those spent in class) and have had fun in others with friends and family. I am grateful to God for 2014.
No! Am not scared, neither am I complaining. Am only raising my point of concern... and I confess that it is not that easy for me to write out this and post it on my blog.
I am very happy as an independent woman. I love being in control. I enjoy my freedom, a lot. However, I am concerned that time is moving so fast. Sometimes I wish that I could stop time from moving.
I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but there are LOTS of “have to’s” that we each live by. Many of them come from “the experts”, from our parents, from our teachers, etc. We are continually taught these hard and fast rules about life. This is what you MUST do to be ….. a success. A good person. Responsible. Have a good life. Be a good christian. And on and on. This is the path you MUST follow or you WILL destroy your life. Now let me say that everything that we’re taught, isn’t bad. Much is really good and we need to hold onto those things. We especially hold on to the truth of God’s word, for it is ALWAYS TRUE. And we need to live within the laws of our society as along as they don’t go against God’s higher order.
But there are things that we are taught, that are accepted as an absolute truth, but aren’t. ( Stolen from my friend, Alecia )
As I grew up, I remember being advised by my older relatives to keep off boys... that boys are bad, and that they are out to ruin girls' lives (I even believed that I could get pregnant by sitting on a chair that a boy had sat on :) ). I was also advised to study, study and study... and that education is the only thing that matters for a happy life. I faithfully followed their advice.
Now that am all grown up, I realize that education is not everything. There are other important things that can bring about happiness. I have come to this realization through observing my friends and former classmates that have taken the leap of faith to start families. No, am not jealous of them. I admire the happiness and contentment in their eyes.
This is real, people! I never thought that I would get to a point in time where I would have concerns about getting children.
Anyway, for 2015, I have a resolution that I have never made before. I will allow myself to be vulnerable, to be free, and to dare to trust.
I pray that God walks with me in this unknown journey.
God isn’t limited to operating within a certain system. He is a creative God, with limitless creativity. So when we walk with Him, the possibilities are endless!
